Tough Day

I'm not sure what causes or triggers my depression, but when it hits me, it brings me down hard! The feelings of no self worth over take me, I no longer possess the will to live - I hate myself and my life.

I think there are many triggers. The tough money situations and the frustrations related to that, including workload are the biggest contributors. I know I can not stop working when I feel behind; behind in money, bills, goals, tasks or anything. I need to stop, breath, and relax.

Yesterday Rachel and I went to the El Dorado Property when I hit bottom, it felt good. It always feels good when we're alone and not on our computers, and especially when we're outdoors.